Hot for Teacher?

With my increase in weight loss I have also has an increase in attention from the opposite sex. I have to admit it is nice to be admired again after years of being a fat chick. How does one handle this attention especially when you like it but have no interest in crossing that line?? I love my husband very much! I hope this phase passes quickly - where it is not so novel! It is playing with fire! I want to stand a safe distance away where it makes me feel warm and nice but far enough away so I don't burst into flames!

Remembering Laura

Today is my niece Laura's birthday. If she was alive she would be 20 years old. She died unexpectedly just after her 11th birthday. I do not know how long grief can last but I still feel the pain especially on holidays, her birthday and the anniversary of her death. I try to think of the positives of her life - the fun she was, how she loved pizza and swimming in the pool. She loved my horses and would ride day and night if we would let her. I remember her long dark hair and her beautiful skin. She loved to enter a room and exclaim "Give a Kid a Cookie!" She was so funny!
With her death she saved at least 6 other children with her organs. This is the one and only bright spot of her death. Do me a favor and give your kids a big hug today! I will always miss my Baby Cakes.

Think of Laura
by Christopher Cross

Every once in a while I'd see her smile
And she'd turn my day around
A girl with those eyes
Could stare through the lies
And see what your heart was saying

Think of Laura but laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way
When you think of Laura laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way

A friend of a friend
A friend to the end
That's the kind of girl she was
Taken away so young
Taken away without a warning

I know you and you're here
In every day we live
I know her and she's here
I can feel her when I sing

Hey Laura, where are you now
Are you far away from here
I don't think so
I think you're here
Taking our tears away

I have a FAT head!

No matter how much weight I have lost it is hard to lose the weight in my brain. My friends tell me I am looking tiny! WTF? I still see the same old fat me. When does a persons brain start to lose the weight? My brain wants to hold on to that excess baggage like a mirage. The mirage of the past is still shimmering in my minds eye. Even as I pull on my size 10 jeans, the shimmering mirage just sees the fat. When does the mirage vanish? When can my FAT head accept that the fat is gone and gone forever? When I was at my heaviest I never could understand the skinny beeoocches who cried "FAT" as they put on their size 10 jeans. I thought they were nuts!! They were just digging for compliments but alas here I am one of "THOSE" girls. Now people kid me about only eating a half a cracker with a schmere...and I just think they are crazy because I have a "FAT" head!! What size must I be before I think "thin"??